Hopelessly Divided
(Written in October 2009)
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I loved you way to much,
from the very start,
I trusted your protection,
I basked in your arms.
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But when you left you killed me,
and another took your place,
he’s nice, and fair, and perfect,
but somehow all I see is your face.
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Our conversations never end,
and I never want them too,
but now I’m being torn apart,
my heart divided in two.
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I love his eyes, and his smile,
and his heartbeat on my ear,
but I miss your arm, and your strength,
and the way you never fear.
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I feel like when I had you,
I gave my heart away,
and though I’ve been pretending not,
with you it’s always stayed.
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But how can I love him too,
afraid to say goodbye?
Is it possible my soul belongs to you,
and his soul belongs to I?
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Although he’s done no wrong,
and it’s not his guilt to bear,
the chips have fallen so for him,
and I know it’s not quite fair.
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I know that I have wronged him,
this day, to the very end,
but this life is all I get,
too short for me to pretend.
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So today I said goodbye,
to my partner and my friend,
in hopes of a new beginning,
proceeding this bitter end.
